Toodleloo, May!
Good Lord, is May really over already? Not that I’m complaining, but time really does just fly on by!
Things are going really fabulously at my new job—it’s pretty awesome, and I’m getting a lot of hours so that is absolutely ahhhmazing.
TWENTY SIX DAYS TILL I SEE ONE DIRECTION IN CONCERT! I literally can’t contain my excitement, especially after buying and subsequently watching the Up All Night Tour DVD last night. It was pure perfection. I just seriously don’t understand why someone would hate those lovely boys. They’re just too adorable and so talented. I do wish they’d dance more, they really don’t give themselves enough credit.
But enough of 1D. It seems to me like my obsession has really taken over lately. Guess that’s just the boredom of summer setting in. There has been one good development from my addiction, though. I’ve kind of decided that if (finances permitting, naturally) I can’t find a for real job after graduation and I’m not in a serious relationship or anything, I might try to move to London with a friend. Why the hell not, I’ve got nothing to lose. And as a writer it doesn’t really matter where I live. Just a random thought, though. Knowing me it’s probably not going to happen.
As Dumbledore says in Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone, “It does not do one well to dwell on dreams”. Somehow, I feel like J.K. Rowling might be trying to tell me something.
Single Girl Problems
Why do I have such a problem with being a single girl??? I’m cute, I’m fun, I’m young, and I’ve got my whole life to have a serious relationship. SO WHY??
I’m not quite sure, because if you really think about it most people are actually single. But here I am, constantly questioning what it is I’m doing wrong because I’ve never been in a relationship. For a while I thought it was because my standards are too high, but I’ve realized that is not the problem here. My standards are perfectly adequate and will not be changing anytime soon, thank you very much. Occasionally its because I go after guys who are slightly out of my league (this does not include my huge list of celebrity crushes; I am well aware of the fact that they are in fact crushes and there is a 99.9% chance that they will never be my reality), but that rarely happens. I feel like I’m pretty realistic about my expectations, I know I’m fun to be around most of the time, and while I would probably be a high maintenance girlfriend I’m definitely willing to work on that for the right guy.
So, my main question is, where the hell is my right guy?! I am a super flirty person, there hasn’t been a shortage of little flings in my life but they never become more than that. I’m going to be 20 in less than 2 months, and I just want to know what it feels like to be in a committed relationship. To have a built-in best friend, to never have a shortage of plans, to know someone out there genuinely loves me without the reason of blood relation being attached.
I honestly don’t think that’s too much to ask for. But apparently it is. 
I need a gentlemanly hottie to take away my single girl probs 
because they occasionally make me sad :(
but i don’t have to work tomorrow and thus can sleep in so i guess there is a bright side to everything :)))
